There has been so much going on in my life lately that keeping up with this blog has been hard. Most of my effort has been put into keep Maddy’s Blog up to date. Although, it’s not the same kind of outlet.
I have been putting a lot of thought into New Year’s Resolutions this year. I don’t like to make them….but I usually do. This year, I’m not going to resolve to do anything new or different. Instead, I’m just going to focus on celebrating life. Part of that will include reading through the bible in a year. I’m going to do the chronological bible. It’s something I’ve never done before but have wanted to. I also got a cool new camera for Christmas and I intend to take a lot more pictures and I hope to even take a digital photography class. It’s something I’ve always wanted to do.
One of the things that I’ve struggled with since getting Maddy is selfishness. I had gotten so used to having one child…and a child that is fairly self-sufficient. I have never been much of a baby person either. Now, I’m in it as deep as it can be….and I’ll be nearly 60 when she’s graduated high school (God willing we get to keep her). It’s not how I envisioned my life. And, yet…when we roll back the tape in our minds, there was no other answer than to say yes when we got the call. It’s reminded me that God’s plans are often (usually) different from my plans. That’s my motivation for reading through the bible….I want constant reminders of God’s greater plan. I want to fit into it…and I want to do it without reservation, although knowing that it will require sacrifice.
I may never get to sell everything and rent bicycles on the beach in Key West while Lloyd writes his novel. So, I want to stop dreaming about that and just celebrate the wonderful life God has given me.